Ashes to Glory- Sample two Foundations

The sky turns dark. There is a heaviness in the air that tells us something is coming. The wind is gentle and refreshing at first and then picks up pace. Soon the drizzle turns into streaks of stinging rain and the wind is throwing things in your face. Water surrounds your ankles. You go into your house. The structure that is supposed to protect you in the storm.
When was the moment they realized the sand was wasn’t going to hold? Was it the cracking of the walls and floors as they shifted with their structural weakness? Was it the shift they felt under their feet? The foundation won’t hold. It is all coming down, and “it fell with a great crash.”

Jesus wasn’t instructing carpentry 101 even though I am certain he is qualified to do so. He was trying to speak to the people about the foundation of their lives. What they stood on and for. He gave them, all of them listening, the answer for survival. Not just how to survive but how to flourish. Hear my words! Put them into practice. Build on the unshakable foundation of God’s trusted and true words.

Shifting and voids. Conditional truths and illusion of beauty. Feelings not vows. Convenience not sacrifices. My wants, my feelings, my expectations, and eventually my failures. The storm will come. It will bring a hell fury like none you have seen. When you stand on what you know, what will sustain you? Will it hold against the storm? After the destruction of this storm passes, will you still be standing on the firm rock foundation? Or will the ocean of life sweep over you claiming your castles and treasures?

What Does Scott Think?

What were you thinking during the time you were doing drugs?

    "To be completely honest I didn't think about anything other than drugs. Especially toward the end. I didn't care about anyone or anything. "

What were your thoughts when you got caught by me?

    "As hard as it is to belive I felt relief. It had been such a long time since I was honest and it made me think that a weight was lifted. "

Did you really think you could stop on your own?

    "I wanted to quit and I tried so many many times. I knew short of locking myself out, I need help

What was it like making that decision and going to rehab?

    It was the hardest thing I ever did.  I never was that scared in my life. 

    

   

What was rebad like for you?

     The first 7-10 days were terrible. sick, cravings, confusion...One day it was life my eyes were open, even colors seemed  bringhter. I had a really hard time being away from my family. But being there and learning what I needed to do saved my family in the inlong run.

What were you thinking the first day out?

    I felt like I was reborn. I wasn't scared at first . If felt goo dto be clean and home. 

How have you felt this whole year without the drugs?

    I have had good and bad times. I know I dont have to lie like that anymore- it keeps me going. I will always have this part of me that I have to keep in check. But the longer I go the easier it gets. 

What do you think of Ashes to Glory ?

After reading it and hear what happened to my family I have never felt so awful. The shame and pain hit really deep. Knowing that, knowing my side of it all will keep me going forever. The woman I love being ut thrugh all th garbage makes me physically sick. I can never take that away. I can never change what happened, but I know I can keep diong the next right thing!

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In that moment, my spirit broke. I tightened my hands on the steering wheel and twisted, twisted my hands. I pulled up to the house, and got right out of the car. I laid down on my bed and lost my mind. This sob was not an average cry. I could feel it pulling deep inside, I grabbed a pillow to hug and cry into. He came in the room and asked if he could help. In my hysteria, I told him to go, and I wanted to see my sister. I had a thought, an idea. I would drive to Pittsburgh to see my sister, and she didn’t have to do or be anything, I just needed to feel safe. With her I could feel safe. But wait. I don't have any gas to get to Pittsburgh. I don't have any money to buy gas. And my kids had to go to school.
My safe place was falling apart. I rolled over and sobbed until my throat was scratchy and my eyes so swollen that I couldn’t have opened them if I tried. At some point the kids came home from school. He told the kids that Mommy’s belly is worked up again, and they should leave me alone. I closed my eyes and drifted in and out of my dreaded consciousness
. After a night of terror and darkness, I woke up in a puddle of my own vomit and had a headache that threatened to tear apart my skull. As I lay in bed staring at the ceiling, I realized I had some choices to make. First, what was I sure of? Nothing. I was sure of nothing. Ahh..maybe
not nothing. Or more importantly someone. Humans will fail you. It is kind of our MO. Even when we try really, really hard, we will fall short of the mark. Who will never fail? Jesus. Just Jesus.

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Ashes to Glory -The book

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But God.....

If you listened to the book trailer, you would see that this book is a non-fiction retelling of one of the hardest times in my life. At the beginning, I felt dead. I was walking and talking, but I was dead inside. There was a time when I thought I was dead. Couldn't go one more step.

But God...

That is where I begin the journey back to Christ. In all reality, I can now connect with the footprint in the sand poem. He carried me.

I felt that my life was over.......BUT God
I wanted to die.....But God
I thought my marriage was over.....But God
I needed it all to be over... But God

Here is a story of my God coming in to the rescue. I had plans, but God stepped in. He flipped my life upside down.

This is the story of one family's fight against drug addiction, and how God carried us back together.

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Disclaimer- I had Scott read the book when I had finished the manuscript. He loved it. Of course Scott made mistakes, but truly I was a mess and letting my pain lead me instead of my God. I am also responsible for my mistakes. Look for my post that is a Question and Answer questions with Scott. Coming soon!