Go are going to make it!!!

 

2 years ago and about 140 pounds. That girl in the white....was dying. Literally. Heart health garbage with a double does of genetics and bad life choices. One day I decided maybe I wanted to live. In more ways than one. Found a dr and got surgery.  That was only the beginning. The easy part actually.  I had to relearn who I was. I had to believe I was worth it. I had to go back to the beginning and meet with my Jesus again. He had to convince me that I was worth loving and fighting for. When I tell you that Jesus is my everything I don't think people understand how literally I mean that. When I told Him it was easier to just let go, that I wasn't worth it. I failed, I gave up, there were others who were worth the time. And as I laid on the floor crying and begging to just let me go. I can't explain it in words but I felt Him lay beside me and hold me and until the sobbing slowed down.  He reminded me of a lot of things. Plans and purposes I had given up on because I wasn't worthy. He told me that it was never about me but HIM. REALITY CHECK. and He promised he would be with me always until the very end of the age. I got up and told Him if He was still willing I would fight. For Him I would fight through it all. What you see is an outward change from an inward Mighty God. He never let go. Stayed right by my side and daily in some big and small way told me that I was worth it and my destiny was going to be all for His Glory. So I fought. Physical illness, mental illness, people who literally told me I wasn't good enough. Every time things things got shaky He reminded me that He wasn't. He had me and that's all that mattered. We fought for my health back, my faith back, we fought for ME. And by golly we are making it. Jesus is my best friend, my guide my SAVIOR.  So I May be a little MUCH.  I will never apologize for that. Because when you have a death to life story to tell because of only Jesus- you GUNNA BE LOUD.  Trust me when I say I get it. I walked it and not only does He save us from sin and death BUT HE can rescue us from ourselves- our failures, disappointments, our lost faith. He is the redeemer. I love you Jesus. Nobody but you.