And I thought I loved you then

I am a worrier. I am never sure about anything. I think and then rethink things. Doubt and ask questions. But one thing I never doubted was that I was going to marry Scott Demi.

I remember on my wedding day that people kept coming up to me and asked me if I was nervous. Nope. Scared. Not at all. I laughed and joked. Checked the clock. Not unsure. Not questioning. I just knew. I knew somewhere in me that this man would love me all of his life. I knew that we would live happily ever after.

Now, 9 years later, I am a different person. He is a different person. I know so much more now than I knew then. I know that love isn't always about the rush of excitement and emotion. Love is more important and way more lasting than that. I know that love is a daily commitment and sacrifice. I know the only way to make yourself happy is in serving and putting the other person first. I know that forgivness and grace is way more important than being right and first. 

And most of all....9 years later I know that I would do it all over again. I still would choose him. He still would choose me. I still would have no doubt that no one could love me like him and I hope he would feel the same. 

My prayer is for God's continual hand on my marriage. That we could grow in grace and mercy with each other. In learning to see each other as a perfect gift from God, we can life each day to the fullest. And when we fall we will have each other to help each other up. That our marriage would be a commitment and a testimony.  

I can't wait to see how smart I am in a couple more years....

THEN by Brad Paisley

And now you're my whole life

now you're my whole world

I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl

Like a river meets the sea,

stronger than it's ever been.

We've come so far since that day

And I thought I loved you then

We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in

And I'll look at you and say

And I thought I loved you then

And I thought I loved you then