Saturday, September 15, 2012

Doing Nothing

I tried to lay perfectly still. Do. Not. Move. Then I started to try and relax my feet and work my way up.
"What are you doing?"
"Nothing," I reply with eyes closed.
"Are you sick?"
"No, I am trying to just do nothing."
"Do you want me to turn off the light?
"Defiantly not. Then I will fall asleep. I don't want to sleep. I want to enjoy doing nothing. If I fall asleep I know I will then simply open my eyes in 5 seconds and a new day will have already started."

You know that old saying that you never really know what you got until it is gone? That is how I feel about summer every September. I never recall how glorious those bright sunny months are before September picks up and I am moving at break neck speed again.

Of course, in the fall the kids go back to school. This of course brings homework, AR books, and the cursed spelling tests. And I swear I spend hours prepping for the next day just in packing lunches, doing the homework, and laying out the clothes. With the fall, came soccer for Luke and Rachel. Practices and games. Football for Will and cheer leading for Rachel. You need  a color coordinated flowchart to follow my monthly calendar.

The fall also means mommy goes back to work. Sigh.... I absolutely love my job. Could never imagine doing anything else. However, work of course brings hours of prep and research. Hours of planning and checking. A "how can I teach this better?" or "how can I help them get it?" constantly playing in the back of my mind.

Don't even get me started with the laundry, meal planning, bathroom cleaning, and the rest that somehow has to be fit into this mess.

Did I mention I also have a three year old princess party in one week? And the dog was in the hospital for three days. And Scott started at his new job in a new plant? And I have an appointment to get a cyst removed and a doctors appointment for my stomach issues at a specialist in Pittsburgh in this coming week?

I don't go on like this because I am upset. Overwhelmed..yes at times. But I realized that I am blessed to have a full time job. Scott is blessed to have a job. I am lucky to have kids who are active in sports and are doing great in school. However, sometimes I just like to do nothing.

So I lay in bed, trying not to let my mind wander to school or other responsibilities. Push aside the guilt that I should be putting away clothes right now. I am going to lay here and think and do nothing,

Tap, tap, tap on my head.
"Mommy, can you read me a book?"
"Sure, I was just doing nothing anyway."

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