Thursday, December 31, 2009

To a new day

"Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no-one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.” ~Psalm 40:5

One this day last year, I was attending my dad's funeral. At least I think it was this day. I don't remember much from that week. I remember Scott had to wash my hair for me, I remember staring at the snow, I didn't eat, and I just tried not to think. This can't be me. I will wake up. Any second now. Then the new year began. A month later I found out I was pregnant with my beautiful little one. I was so shocked. I took 2 tests a week apart just to be sure. And the year rolled on.

This year has been hard in parts. Really hard. But it has been wonderful too. Like September 23 when my angel came into the world. Like every moment I got the chance to laugh with my family, smell my kids hair, celebrate birthdays, wake up to a warm house, and to new beginnings.

Ever since Thanksgiving this year I have been coming back to the thought of how blessed I am. It is crazy that I should be so lucky. I have a wonderful family. Children who are happy and healthy. Scott and I both have jobs that we love and let us feed our kids and heat our house. We are blessed. We were walking in Walmart the other day and Scott said "the next time I complain about something slap me. Some people in the world don't have drinking water and here my thought is whether I want lime or regular tea." And he is right. It would do me good to remember how blessed I am. That is the attitude I want to carry into the new year. One of thankfulness.
We never know what a new year may bring. Saying good bye or saying hello. Let's be thankful for today. And all the gifts we are given.

The flowers Scott got me after I had Bella. A rose for each child and the carnations from him. Carnations are my favorite...

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